One “Red Pilled” Catholic to Another

Red Pill

Used to refer to a process by which a person’s perspective is dramatically transformed, introducing them to a new and typically disturbing understanding of the true nature of a particular situation.

I went to bed thinking about the best way to help fellow Catholics who are realizing things “aren’t right” in the Church and not getting any real insights from their own parish or diocese.  I live in one of those diocese.   It just happened I was in a position that prompted me to seek outside my local resources and find out as much as I could about the initial scandal that sprung forth last summer.  I have been investigating the problems in our Church for eleven months.  My “Red Pill” experience actually been coming once dose after another.  This following post is what I came across in my first few months…

The Night My Eyes Were Opened

Last August I received an email from a Catholic organization about a horrible crisis going on in the Catholic Church.  I was stunned upon learning of the huge mess happening in Pennsylvania concerning Catholic priests and sexual abuse cases there. The Pennsylvania Supreme Court made public one of the broadest-ever investigations into Catholic clerical sex abuse of minors in the United States. The document, a 1,400-page grand jury report, named at least 300 priests accused of child sex abuse by more than 1,000 victims throughout the state.  My shock deepened when I learned that Theodore McCarrick, then one of the highest-ranking Vatican officials in America was forced to resign his cardinalship following numerous accusations of sex abuse from both adult seminarians and children.  I didn’t know much about him, so I Googled the cardinal’s name and found an article about a letter written by young Catholic professionals to our bishops respectfully demanding some answers on a website called First Things. This began my launch into fact finding…

“Archbishop McCarrick’s predatory career would not have been possible without the culpable silence or active complicity of men at the highest levels of the Church. Revelations of his abuse have therefore gravely damaged the credibility of the whole Catholic hierarchy. Here a group of young Catholics speaks with one voice about the need for a cleansing fire. Their statement is non-partisan, assuming nothing but the eternal validity of the Church’s teaching.” – First Things, August 8, 2018

This was my first insight about the crisis and a good place to begin if you are just getting started.  Read the following link:
An Open Letter from Young Catholics

The Viganò Letters

Archbishop Carlo Maria Viganò

Then on August 26th, in an open letter first published by Lifesite News and National Catholic Register, Archbishop Carlo Maria Viganò, who served as nuncio to the United States from 2011-2016, wrote his first letter of testimony about the corruption of the hierarchy of the Church. Lifesite News said

“In an extraordinary 11-page written statement (see official English text below), Archbishop Carlo Maria Viganò, 77, claims that Pope Francis knew about strict canonical sanctions imposed on McCarrick by Pope Benedict XVI but chose to repeal them…”


(While at Lifesite News, you can also put Viganò Letter in their “Search” window and come up with so many articles.  One sure way to learn more about the early stages of the storm that hit the Church in August of 2018.)

The Archbishop Viganò testimony is shocking, and sadly none can disprove it. In fact, as many in the hierarchy deride him, information comes out vindicating Viganò.   He has published a few more letters and given very limited interviews. At the present, he is in hiding for his life for telling the truth about the current crisis in our Church.

Finding the Links

By now I was in shell shock.  I quit editing my book or doing any work on my websites.  I was grieved deeply for those who were wronged, and I was grieved deeply for the Catholic people who had been living with a system of lies floating around our priests and bishops.  Then I found a link somewhere that led to Complicit Clergy.  It was full of articles coming from many different sources and calls to action.  It was there that I first learned about Church Militant, another resource for Catholic truth.

I did lots of reading, but I also watched podcasts and videos available online.  I found the comments at the end of many articles shared the frustrations and shock of Catholics from all over our country and beyond.  I found very few Catholics around me searching for the truth.   Mostly, I prayed.

Trusted resources had something in common – deep faith. Sound theology that goes way back in our Church teaching to the very roots of our faith.  Dr. Taylor Marshall is a teacher at heart.  One of the best I have come across, and since August I have been watching all his podcasts, getting up to date information, insights and sometimes a good chuckle from Dr. Marshall and usually his partner in following current events, Timothy Gordon.  These two introduced me to the term “Red Pill.”  If you have read Archbishop Viganò’s letter, this video will be especially interesting to you, and an introduction to one of the best resources on the internet.

Archbishop Viganò’s first testimony set me searching through the internet looking for Catholic response.  In the process, I gained more and more access to Catholic news and blogs as well as more secular outlets.  I began to become aware the uncovering of such vile sexual crimes against our children and seminarians was not only a hard pill to swallow, but just the beginning of understanding the real state of affairs happening in our church across the world.

Truly this is how I became a “Red Pilled” Catholic concerning the scandal that rocked the Catholic Church during the summer and fall of 2018.  It didn’t take long to realize that dependable resources were outside the box of my own diocese.  A few parish priests spoke out, but the diocese was extremely careful.

If all of this is new to you, keep searching.  I’ve given you good resources.  If you know someone who needs to learn about the uproar in the Church from the beginning of summer 2018, please share this post! For those of you who are up to date, stay tuned.  This blog site is new, and I’m laying a foundation for the droves of Catholics who are not going to be able to ignore the obvious much longer.

I think that as we begin to dig deep into the mire that is currently surrounding our Church, it is very sorrowful, but we mustn’t lose faith!  One night, not long after first learning about the troubles in our Church, I was ready for bed and had decided to pray the rosary before turning out the lights.  I had on only a dim light and was propped up against the headboard with pillows.  I had worship music playing softly in the background and began to pray the Glorious Mysteries.  Suddenly as I looked up, it was as if there was an open heaven above me, and then this beautiful fabric began to unroll covering my entire ceiling, creating a canopy.   I was stunned at the sheer beauty of this woven material, but kept saying the rosary.  Then it was as if a great weight came down and the fabric began to bulge directly over the center of the bed.  The bulge came so close to me and was so real that I reached out to touch this amazing white and blue material, but I couldn’t feel it!  I was so amazed that I thought perhaps it best to just continue my prayers and watch.  Suddenly all of the fabric seemed to land directly on my bed in a heap.  In the center of the fallen canopy there formed a great bunch of filthy mire!  As I watched this beautiful women began to rise up out of the mire in a  blue gown. Her hair was fair and she was looking up towards heaven.  As I prayed, she became larger and larger and rose higher and higher from the muck.  Not a bit of it remained on her gown.  Suddenly her garment was freed from the mire and she rose quickly up into the heavens.  It seemed many bright rays or flashes of light met her, and she joined in and turned into the most marvelous display of light. The more I have prayed and thought about this open vision, the more I have become convinced I was seeing the Church rise from the filth it is in presently.  I believe she represents the true Church or the faithful remnant rising with a pure garment to meet our Lord…

Which leads me to say, Be encouraged for nothing is impossible with our God.  I am praying for you!

God bless you always,

Nancy M


© 2019 Nancy H. Montgomery


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